Fox, How Could You Leave Me This Way?

Glee is on hiatus until spring… and I will miss it. I watch a lot of intense TV shows and it’s nice to have one that has a little bit of levity and not just gritty brokenness.

Tonight, as soon as Mr. Schue said “You can’t always get what you want, Finn.” I knew they were going to sing it. As a child brought up on that song, I was positively giddy at the idea. I have tried playing the Stones version for Kate and Lexi, but they don’t appreciate it nearly enough. Guess what’s going on their iTunes playlist this week? Thankfully, I have an amazon mp3 credit burning a hole in my inbox…

MRI in the Morning

I am getting an MRI of my spine in the morning. It’s hard to know how to feel, it’s been a hard year for me, physically. I hope they find something treatable. Real hope for a day without pain is hardly something I remember.

Albums That Shaped My Life [1]

A song came up on my iTunes shuffle last week that propelled me to nostalgia, remembering how much it shaped a particular time in my life. The album is Chase the Buffalo, by Pierce Pettis. I randomly met a guy on a road trip in college, and somehow Pierce came up in our brief conversation. I discovered him when I was writing CD reviews and connected with his alternate tunings and general style of play, which reminded me a lot of my dad. This random guy asserted that I needed Chase the Buffalo, and it was out of print, so he took my address and promptly sent me a burned copy. I wore it out playing it so much. A few years ago I replaced it with a gently used copy from amazon marketplace.

I like contemporary folk music (Pettis, Wilcox, Dar Williams, etc.) in moderation, it’s not actually something I can generally listen to on a daily basis, but something about the songwriting on this album blew me away. The song I heard last week, “Trying to Stand in a Fallen World” – the imagery of the title alone is so moving to me. “You’re Not There” with it’s haunting first line, “The presence of your absence follows me…” There’s “Family” which has been covered a number of times, including by Dar Williams, and “I Will Be Here” which is a great tribute to friendship. In college when I needed to feel something other than my own self-important rantings in my head, I’d put on this CD and be transported. I can remember listening to it in my dorm room, in my car, in the brand-new Borders, everywhere. I can even remember some of what I was trying to escape from. Music has that power, mixed with memory, to take me back in time.

This wasn’t the first, or last CD that grabbed hold of me, I am sure I will write about others. I’d love to hear some of yours as well.

Jolly Old Saint Nicholas

I didn’t grow up doing the Santa Claus thing, so maybe I don’t understand what I am missing, but we have avoided it thus far. We try to be minimalistic about gifts and possessions in general and it works for us. We decided to try to celebrate Saint Nicholas Day, and when we remember (I think it’s been twice in the last three years, thank you Google calendar) the kids set their shoes out the night before and find them filled with candy. We talk about giving gifts in secret and fighting for truth (“You can only hit heretics.”) But, speaking of the historical Saint Nicholas always leads to Kate asking if he is still alive. We’re trying not the be that family. This year we told them we only talk about Santa in our family, he’s our secret. Not sure how successful that will be. Any suggestions for how to handle this? Last year Kate told her best friend Santa was dead, but the friend did not believe her, worrying as they get older this will not work itself out so well…

Soup for the Weary

I had a bowl of leftover Fake-it Italian Soup today for lunch, and thought of all the people I know hustling and bustling who would appreciate a recipe for dinner that
(a) consists of ingredients from the pantry or freezer
(b) which are relatively inexpensive
(c) only takes 15 minutes to make

Grab all the ingredients on your next trip to the grocery store, and you will be prepared for your next one-of-those days.

Thank you, Google

This time of the year, about half of the searches that lead people here are dealing with the question did Mary suffer labor pains? Michael posited that question a few years back.

I answered then, and still believe now, that she did. My labors (even Lexi’s at home and unmedicated) remind me so much of what Jesus says in John 16, when he is telling the disciples about the sorrow they will feel at his death being so overshadowed by the joy they will experience when they see him again. “When a woman is giving birth, she has sorrow because her hour has come, but when she has delivered the baby, she no longer remembers the anguish, for joy that a child has been born into the world.”

She labored in pain and then she rejoiced, at her son, who had come to save us all.

One Week Ago…

Marked nine years of blogging for me. I started in my teens in college, using what was then a relatively new website (blogger) to publish thoughts that really no one cared about. One of my first posts was a lament about missing an intramural soccer game, wondering if any other women would show up, hoping the coed Dandy Lions would not have to forfeit. COMPELLING STUFF. I am not sure that my voice has developed all that much, but I’m glad y’all have found me and stuck around.

He Shows Up

Advent, of course, means coming. It is good and right that we have a time to remember the longing for Christ’s incarnation, remember that we are longing for his second coming when he will put the world to rights. One thing that struck me this week in a new way is how much Christ’s coming is not just a past and future event, but something that is happening continually.

When a friend drops everything to be with me when I need a friend, Christ is near. When our hearts break with those in sorrow, when we fight for the oppressed, Christ shows up. When we gather at his table, Jesus comes and meets us there. He has come and will come again, but He IS risen. And that has present implications.

I am still longing for the new heavens and the new earth, for all things to be made new. But I am comforted as I see the ways that he is near, even now.

Taking the Challenge

I have participated several times in the December Photo Project and had fun sharing and exploring others’ photos during December. (Try it!) I have neglected this blog so much that I am taking a different approach this year: the 31-Day Challenge. So do not be alarmed that my feed suddenly is active after a long season of dormancy… maybe it will be a good jump start into the new year.

Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Brownies

These have been a big hit this autumn!

2 cups all-purpose flour
1 1/2 tablespoon pumpkin-pie spice or combo of cinnamon/ginger/nutmeg
1 cup (2 sticks) salted butter, melted
1 1/4 cups sugar
1 large egg
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1 cup canned pumpkin puree
6-8 oz. chocolate chips

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line 13×9 with parchment paper. Whisk together flour and pumpkin pie spice. In a separate bowl, cream butter and sugar until smooth; beat in egg and vanilla just until combined. Add pumpkin puree (at this stage it can look kind of curdled.) Gently mix in dry ingredients just until combined and fold in chocolate chips. Bake for 30-40 minutes – mine lightly brown at the edges but a toothpick test yields moist crumbs (think brownies.) Partially cool before you lift out using the parchment paper and cut into squares. This recipe is for a FUDGY consistency, if you want something more cake-like, cream the butter at room temperature and add 1 tsp baking soda to the dry ingredients.

They are also excellent served warm with vanilla ice cream.

Faith Like A Child

One of the most amazing things about parenting is how much my children teach me about faith and following Jesus. I have been observing Lexi closely lately, we’ve had so much one-on-one time since Kate started kindergarten, and it’s so encouraging to watch her grow.

Of all of the people in our family, Lexi is the most likely to pray with and for me. Even if it’s something routine, that happens everyday, she never tires of praying for it. It amazes me how much she gets sin and brokenness, she doesn’t hide from them, she feels their weight. She shows me consistently how she wants to grow in maturity, praying that God would help her to grow more like Jesus. She wrestles with sanctification, asking the big questions like “why do I keep sinning when I ask God to help me to not sin?” With her tender heart and willingness to serve, I am confident that God will use her to minister to many others, like she ministers to me.

When she joyfully receives the bread and the wine tonight, I will be praying that God strengthens her to always follow after Jesus with the passion and faith that she demonstrates today.

Seeds Family Worship

A few posts back I talked about these cds – we hadn’t had them for very long, so my assessment was basically that they were much better musically than the scripture songs I grew up with. As we’ve lived with them and listened to them, the girls and I have grown very fond of them. If they are playing in their room, they turn on their CD player and listen. They sometime sleep with them playing softly. Then they are stuck in all of our heads, in a good way. Scripture we start meditating on, without even trying.

I have a coupon code for 20% off that you can use – KSTEWART09 – it doesn’t expire until January 10th, 2010. All the CDs come packaged with two copies, so you can share with a friend or ministry (Cornerstone Schools of Alabama would love some more!). Our favorites are Seeds of Courage, Purpose and Encouragement.